The Quarantine Queen

Disappointment is looking at your blog only to realize that you've posted nothing since December of last year and then looking at your podcast and realizing that you released the first episode of the second season and didn't keep up after that, And I know you're supposed to make time for the things you care about and allat but listen, I've been tired and I've been damn busy, On top of working all the time and being in a zombie-like state after work, I've been taking an acting class, which has now been put on hold until Miss Rona runs through here. I was going to learn some basic videography skills volunteering for Festival International which has also been canceled due to the rona. FUCK, The entire world is being put on fucking hold. This is crazy, and what's even crazier is that people aren't taking it seriously, which is just beyond me. This is the reason I have to matrix away from people when I'm at work. It doesn't help that my sinuses are acting up which is making me needa cough and every time I feel an itch I'm like "this is the end". Also my best friend moved away and I didn't get to see her beforehand.

OH YEAH. I still have to go to work. Don't get me wrong, I am GRATEFUL to be working when so many people's jobs were literally snatched from them without pay. But I DO NOT want that rona, I'm FRAIL. And not only are some of them not able to work, but they're still expected to pay their bills. I cry. I feel for these people. I feel for healthcare professionals, I feel for grocery store workers and first responders. I feel for everyone who got thrown into this and are doing what they're supposed to do and are still suffering because other people don't listen, especially the goddamn Americans and Europeans who are spreading this ick all willy nilly. Yall burn my ass up. People suddenly want free healthcare and childcare and this and that. But still won't vote Bernie Sanders. I hate it here.

Anyway, Lemme move my ass on to something else. I know some of y'all are staying home as they're supposed to and working on stuff that you didn't have time to before. Content, blogs, courses, music, books. I really am thrilled for yall. Because I have even less time than I did before. Ya girl is working overtime. And while I'm not complaining about the coin, I'm mf tired. And now I'm going to be even further behind on my own crap UGH.

I haven't made music in YEARS. I've had writer's block for probably nearly as long. I suck. I had really big plans for this year and I really feel like the Rona is coming to snatch that away from me. And before anyone tries to drag me, I know people are dying and I know I'm not the only one suffering, but it's very normal to be sad over something that you were looking forward to. I was finally going to quit the job I hate and leave the city I hate for something bigger and better and I feel those dreams kind of slipping away. Because what if there are no jobs? What if the economy is so shitty that no one is hiring? What if this man who is in office can't help pull the economy out of this slump? But then I kind of started to take a step back and think that as cliche as this sounds that maybe everything happens for a reason. Like hear me out, maybe it really does. I wanted to stay in New Orleans last year, but I didn't and now NOLA is crawling with the Rona. I wanted a new job but now I'm one of the few people working. I wanted more money and now I'm working overtime. So like maybe God or the Universe or whoever is listening to me and just wants me to chill tf out and be patient. Which is booty because I swear I was born with zero patience.

So maybe my dreams aren't dashed, maybe they're just on the way. Lemme stop focusing on the bad stuff and tell yall about shit I haven't been slacking on. For one, my website is finally getting redone. When imma look real professional, it's over for you bitches. I got cast in my first short film of the year. It has been put on hold as of now because of, you know, a global pandemic, but it'll be waiting on the other side for me. AND it's a horror short. If you know me, you know I love some horror and to be able to be in a horror film, I'm too hype.

What else I got for yall? I started learning Spanish. I have wanted to for a while but thanks to Bad Bunny's dope ass album and my inability to understand what was being said, I immediately got my ass on Duolingo and have a 21-day streak. When I'm slanging that Spanish to all the papis in Puerto Rico, I don't wanna hear nothing. I also was able to finally get into Werk University. If you don't know what is it, look it up, it really might do you some good. But imma learn how to make me some shmoney.

I have an audition (that's also been put on hold due to the rona) coming up for a film about human trafficking. It's the kind of dark drama that I've always wanted to do because I'm dark and dramatic and I can't be funny if it's expected of me so I have to do drama.

I had a potential assistant job with this REALLY well-connected lady but it seems like that fell through, which is a tad annoying. But what can you do?

As you can see, I've had this weekend too much time alone with my thoughts but if you want to avoid making the same mistake, I have options for you my honey bunnies.

- Download Duolingo and learn a language, it's a lot more fun than it was in high school

- Do some at-home workouts. To be clear this is usually the only way I work out and I think I'm getting more toned. SELF magazine and POPSUGAR have some great workouts if you're trying to not just sit on the couch and watch Netflix while you'res stuck at home.

- If you like movies, Shudder has a free trial. Get spooky.

- You can take free courses from Ivy League schools HERE

- DJ D-Nice has been having virtual dance parties, so if you're a fan of club going, beat your face and hit the living room for them sick beats.

- Youtube University literally has nearly every piece of knowledge you could ask for, go make yourself useful and learn how to crochet or something.

- If you have a library card, you can download Libby and check out books on your phone. I'm currently reading "My Sister the Serial Killer".

- If you can sew and have the means, you can make masks to donate to local hospitals, who are unfortunately short on all kinds of supplies.

- Foster a dog. This crazy time has been especially hard on shelters. If you're home all day and have space, consider fostering a dog, cat or another small animal to help alleviate some of the stress from shelter workers in these rough times.

- Apply to all those jobs you have saved on LinkedIn and write a cover letter, too.