Manifest your Destiny

When I first created a a manifestation list and a vision board at the beginning of the year, I didn't even think of the profound changes that would come from doing those simple things.

I didn't really think that manifestation was something realistic. I mean obviously it's realistic but I didn't think that just writing something down would help put you on the path to getting it. I just thought of it as a tool to help you remind yourself of the things you wanted and to keep chasing after them.

Very early on in the year, things off my list started to come true. I was getting parts in film and tv things (literally a dream come true). And I noticed other good things were coming into my life and even more important, good people were coming into my life. In the last year of my life, I have added some incredible people to the list of friends that I have. Some of them I like to give them their cred (like Meagan) and some others not so much (Like Christian).

I don't really know where I'm trying to go with this, but I know that as much as people tell you that you create your own destiny, and as much as it sounds like bullshit, I'm kinda starting to think it's true. I think we do create our own destinies and we bring things into our lives based off of the things we put into the universe. I guess. But I didn't think I was really putting that much good stuff into the universe, so what made me deserving of getting all these things? What made me so special that I was getting my foot in the door to being able to do things I'd only dreamed of?

I still feel very undeserving most of the time. Especially with the ups and downs of depression, it's hard to feel like I've done anything to warrant these things even though I try my hardest to go out of my way to help people, be grateful and be kinder.

Regardless, I always try to express gratitude even for the little wins.

Put whatever you want out into the universe and have faith that it will come to you. I still don't completely understand how manifesting things works, and I know it sounds like there is some sort of conflict with this and religion but there isn't. It's the simple idea that you can turn a thought or a theory into something real.

You have to have a vision and a strong belief in it. Like an undying belief, you just have to know in your BONES that this is meant for you. I guess it's that whole law of attraction thing. Whether or not you even realize it, if you stay in the whole doomsday, woe is me scenarios, that's what you'll get. Don't get me wrong, I know sometimes you don't even have a choice. Depression or other life circumstances beyond your control can negatively affect you and you're not to blame for that.

But in my hoe opinion, I think that we're magnets and we will attract what we put into the world. So maybe try every day to be a little better of a person, even if you're a complete piece of shit. There's always time to start improving yourself and attracting what you want out of life. Even when there are times you feel completely shattered or alone or empty or hopeless. There's always time to change that.

So if you're reading this, I'm grateful that you even opened a tab to listen to my constant rambling. AND I am sending you all the positivity that I'm capable of. Continue to chase your dreams and as always, make that money don't let that money make you.